x everything's changing
when i turn around
all out of my control
i'm a mobile
//mobile. avril lavigne
phoonty's gone! (not that im close to her or anything. but we were friends..once! haha) and soon everyone would be gone too..which is really traumatising when you think of it. there's tings, of course. and im NOT anticipating the shite. oh fuck. why cant the world be just a lone place? and we can all live together. and be happy. all the time.
havent been able to come online these days..hectic schedule! sigh. never felt so relieved when i was done with physics. the chem ppr sucked like hell :(
decorated class for chinses new year! actually it was more like pasting red packets all around. but it turned out to be quite nice! esp the board at the back of the class where yins did. and the window panes! but well. expect 4D to win la. as usual. haha realised 4D sounds/looks like 4D! 4D win win 4D. haha ok obviously im not talking abt toto la. i mean 4 diligence okay duh. am crappy.
towned just now. supposed to watch school of rock with my favourite girl but change of plans. in the end was out with dadeedoo :) and tanessa. hung around, met mrs pitt (or some 10 other guys' surname) and i bought the CUTEST..stuff. at ah. forgot what it was called. beads, i think. anyhow. saw wyn..audrey!! jacob/joseph. and there was funny lex who does the weirdest things. and..cant remember if there was anyone else. oh and da's junior samantha came with her bf and his friends. and i have to say that samantha has the nicest lashes ever. was happily watching them flutter in awe. haha and tanessa's complexion is like.. well. is she mortal??! just like freda. am like surrounded with perfect people! and of course. me with my large and grotesque nose. well. i shall not lapse into depression. haha cutting my hair tomms!! wish me luck! told tings i shall buy a wig if i look horrid. gulps. just..dont laugh at me when you see me!! cos im like balding thanks to my constant tying up of my hair and i needa change parting to get it back on track. and to do so, i have to snip bangs! just pray that i dont look tootified ._. yayy shall go bag hunting !! and maybe get a top or smth. hee! gleams with delight. haha.
you know i want to say i miss you
the way i did when the skies were blue.
but when black spurns white
its irreversible.
its complicated.
and i never would want
to screw things up for you
but i'll always be here. for you :)
i suspect that i have breast cancer (yea, WHAT breast?) but everyone thinks im mental! well. shall go the breast cancer webiste to check it out. and before i die please see me more often and well. smile! or something. hahaha this reminds me of poor da who cant pierce her ear cos its streaming with veins and she'd go blind if she went ahead and took the risk! ah the downs of having a delicate lil ear :) so cute! but well. you can live without it, girl. and please. dont think too much. nothing stays the same forever, remember that. -hugs-
are you aware of what you make me feel baby
right now i feel invisible to you
like im not real
you used to
but that wasnt the case
everything wasnt okay
i was left to
grinning with a lost stare
when i decided
why should i care?
cos you werent there when i was
i was so alone.
i feel like changing my layout!
